Friday, December 14, 2012

i'm back...

Can you believe it has been 10 months?  Where has the time gone?  Where have I been?  I have recommitted to blogging our journey in our own sweet little piece of Mayberry.  Stay tuned.

Sunday, February 12, 2012

shhh... did you hear?

ever notice what odd creatures we are?
we love a good story, we love a good secret.
we promise to turn the key, lock it up tight, and toss it. we cross our hearts, poke our eye.
we never want to hear, 'liar liar, pants on fire'.

well, i have a secret. i know some of you have the same secret.
who can keep it?
we will find out this week won't we. hehehe

Monday, February 6, 2012

hanging on but not holding my breath...

our family has had a full plate of pain, sorrow, and just plain crap (maybe i can share later). i was reading a darling friends blog this afternoon and part of what she shared i have been feeling. she gives my heart and thoughts clarity, thanks ms. morgan... 'we went from shock and disbelief, to sadness, to believe-it-or-not, acceptance. all of a sudden, nothing really mattered but our family. we needed to remember a few things. we needed to see. this nightmare allowed us to buck up and unify. it is a call to humility, and it reminded us to be grateful.'

matt and i have been reaching for one another more. trying to make the little things count and be more meaningful. clinging to kade more. cherishing our time with siblings and neices and nephews more. amazed at our parents unconditional love and tenderness for all of us and especially those that have been knocked to the ground and repeatedly kicked in the gut! astonished by our heavenly father's tender mercies and continually praying for more.

so in the meantime we remind one another to breath.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

one year from now... don't regret a single day!

happy new year!

change is in the air for my family. some exciting- some happy- some thrilling- some sad- some upsetting

each day will be graced with a smile and a deep breath.

it is a great time of year to reflect on where i have been, what i have done, and what i would like to still do. some of my resolutions keep coming back each new year... refinish the dining room table, leaf, and chairs (silly me), lose weight, be involved, love more fully (this a great one every year).

dining room furniture you ask...i purchased the set 3 years ago, it sat in the garage half sanded for two years, and the last year it has been in our basement (hubby couldn't stand it taking up his valuable garage space). i can't for the life of me figure out how i want to finish it. do i want to finish it like one of my favorite furniture stores display sets (evan's), do i want to stain it a dark gorgeous walnut (like my brothers amazing office furniture)? what to do, what to do?

lose weight you laugh...this has been something i talk about, make fun of, and simply never give it an honest effort. sure i have a gym membership and i love the gym. i am not a morning person and the 5:30 kick boxing class (even though i loved it) is too early for this working momma. i would go at night but, i get home around 6pm and feel guilty leaving my family to go work out. i can continue with the excuses but, let's be honest... if you have seen me you know that i have horrible eating habits (never eat breakfast, slam down energy-caffeine free packets, and pick on junk all night). sounds like i should be one on the biggest loser 'no excuses' season? yes! need jillian michaels knocking on my door? yes! need to grow up and act like a responsible 39 old wife and mother? yes! who knows, maybe this is my year to act.

be involved you wonder... i over book myself, i am one that loves to have a calendar full, i am one that loves to be involved, i am one that loves to be on the go. i have always been this way, even as a little girl i felt like i was missing out on something. i hated staying home, i loved being surrounded by friends and was so blessed to live in an area that was full of great and amazing people. now as an adult i feel that i am still surrounded by great and amazing people. i love serving my community, i love serving in my church, i love serving in my extended family, and most importantly i love serving within the walls of my own home.

love more fully...ever look back and think 'could've, should've, would've?' i know i do and especially with my family. this year is dedicated to self and family. i don't want to wish anything away. i want to soak it all in. i want to document the comings and goings of my little family. who else would know that when kade was teething his first two teeth were his 'fangs', who else would know that matt loves to eat kipper snacks but-i refuse to let him eat them in the house, who else would know that kade loves music and knows artist and title to most songs, who else would know that matt loves to lounge on weekends doing nothing more than just being a dad, who else would know that kade loves to prank us by bracing cups of water on door tops- putting salt in our water in the fridge, who else would know that kade loves exploring. i want to continue cherishing this little man matt and i are raising. i want to love my husband up one side and down the other. i want to live this year with no regrets.

i have fallen in love with a blog that is dedicated to finding self and clinging to those things that are most important, family. one thing she said that touched my heart strings, and i quote: 'your journey has molded you for the greater good, and it was exactly what it needed to be. don't think that you've lost time. it took each and every situation you've encountered to bring you to the now. and... now is right on time.'